Minutes turn to hours and hours into days, months to years.
Stop , please stop what you are doing and think of where time has gone….
I find myself hating time; it is my enemy. There is just
never enough of it. We live in the fast lane every single day, rushing here and
rushing there. And we have to….. The demands on us as people are an incredible
burden; even the things we love to do cause us to always be on the chase. I
wish I could throw out all of the clocks and calendars in my home; they are
painful reminders that there is a measure of time…. to our life. It; LIFE
happens so fast.
I am going to do this, or I was going to do that…..every
single person on this planet says “there is just not enough time in the day”…I
agree in fact, there just is not enough time in life to get it all done. But
what we hope to God happens is that we get all the important stuff done…
The anticipation of what lies ahead is almost unbearable and
we feel that it will never arrive. “I want to go to bed and wake up when the
day arrives”….and yet once it comes; time devours it and it becomes a distant
memory. Expecting your first child for example…. Each day for nine months we
pray that the day will be upon us; she is now almost 21 years of age. Where was
I and how did this happen?
We stand still in time for only a few moments with each
incredible blessing that transpires in our life time. Could you imagine if we
had the ability to freeze time but to only relish in the moment? There are many
times in my life that I would love to revisit and not only in my mind. Nostalgia
is one of the greatest gifts we could ever give ourselves….oh how we all love
the idea of familiar thoughts and events, warmth, comfort and joy from the
people and places we had and went when we were young. These my friends are the memories
of yesterday that hold ourselves in the future and allow us to find a reason to
smile and hold joy amongst our deepest darkness and pain.
We grieve the loss of our loved ones and we cry with pain
and yet a smile warms our hearts and we fill with laughter as we are able to
recall the events and situations that define our relationships with the ones we
love. “Remember when we….” And the laughter ensues……. That is nostalgia, which
is our memory; that is our joy. Think of a song you loved as an adolescent and instantly
you are transported back to that very day; that very moment…..you feel good.
Time is too slow for when we anticipate, too fast when we
have fear, too long when we grieve, too short when we rejoice…but when we love
and have faith; THAT time will be for all eternity…. And I am thankful for
that. To know that my love for the people in my life will be celebrated and
enjoyed without the shackles of time is joyous…….
Time cannot be a barrier to us, we cannot allow this to
happen. To fight time and to win the battle against it is to defeat it by
controlling it. Control time? By forcing yourself to use it wisely; to your
advantage and never waste one precious moment of it. Take the goodness out of
life and do exactly what you need to do in your life to make memories and
events that will allow you to revisit them when you need the reminders of how
good life is.
If time was measured in dollars and cents and not in seconds
and minutes would you not change the way you spend it? Is that person or event
worth the money to be spent or is it a waste? Can we not realize that time is
spent to never be returned or replenished? Yesterday is only to serve as a
reminder as to where you were not to be wasted by living there…it is to bring
us to tomorrow with perhaps a small lesson to brighten the next day.
Reflections are an important part of life but we should not ……never ever waste
today or tomorrow with living in what has already happened.
I heard in early December that I was to have surgery and I
was elated that I had plenty of time to prepare and yet I am reflecting today
and realizing that in 2 weeks I will be in the hospital…. I can’t stop the
ticking of my clock..no matter how hard I try. I am terrified of wasting my
days with nonsense or unimportant details. I want to savour each moment and ingest
all the goodness that surrounds me. I feel like I am eating one of my favourite
desserts and saddened that I am about to enjoy the very last bite…. I want
another piece.
I have grandiose plans…there are so many people that I want
to spend time with, have coffee with, wrap up with a blanket and hold….I have
14 days before I go. I am frustrated with time. I want it to stop right now! I
want to create more memories and do more with my life…but time is a bastard.
I don’t
want to waste it talking about negativity or the past; unless it is of the days
when we all were together and laughter filled the room…I don’t want to revisit
pain or regrets. They happened; they are done.
Please do me a favour and listen to your hearts and listen
to your soul……do what makes you smile, do what makes your soul sing with joy.
Life is measured by time…don’t waste it worrying; waste it doing. Love the
people around you and tell them that you do; don’t make them wonder. Tell them
why you love them not just that you do. Forgive yourself and the ones around
you so that you can empty your “bucket” of pain and replenish it with joy. Do
not wait to have that conversation that you have always longed to have; speak
it, make your words be heard.
Life is a mere second and should never be taken for granted;
ever. Nor are the people in your life. Take but a small second to think of how
you want to spend your minutes…..
Just a few thoughts
Sights, sounds and certain fragrances are reminiscent to
A time and place in our lives that moved you or left an
impermeable
Mark on your soul…
The smell of a baby, is genuinely the aroma of beginning
The sonance of a cricket, majestic in the night,
The sight of a blue heron gliding through the air, gangling
perfection of flight
The dew upon the grass, the return of school days in early
September
The colour of the autumn leaves in Ontario, a ride in the
countryside
Black sky painted with a million diamonds to wish/dream upon
A lit Christmas tree dancing on the ceiling of a dark room
The crackling sound of the logs in the fireplace being
ensued by flame
The aroma of your mothers Sunday meal, and the anticipation
of eating with family
The sight of puppies in a wicker basket, a small boy with a
sweater
Warm baked cookies and a fresh glass of milk
Saturday morning cartoons as a child in your pajamas, with a
bowl of cereal and toast
The sound of rain along the pane of your window, like a
cleansing of the mind
The very first kiss…you can still feel it in your knees
A butterfly nestling in the petals of a flower, a
companionship of nature
A bride with her father on the isle…a pathway from child to
woman
The sound of your child’s cry for the first time,
The first glance at your son/daughter….. A photograph etched
upon your heart
The touch of someone you love….
Thoughts of family and the comfort of knowing where you
belong
A friendship so powerful/ being chosen as their family
The celebration of true soul mates as your soul turns to one
Life being lived ………..smiling from its’ return
~Christine~
This is where I have spent my life "MY TIME"
My greatest joy~ My Family
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